I just haven't seemed to be able to get myself together the last few days. Everything has become so stressed! 
I just couldn't get up the energy to write in here. I suppose that is because I like posting more positive things here, angry is okay though, because I see that as actually doing something , but at the moment I just haven't got the impetus even to feel angry ...... 
..... hmmmm..... I must be a bit depressed...?
Actually, that's an understatement - the last couple of days I have been feeling 'what's the point' about everything. And that's obviously not a good sign!
I think it's more than the 'money problms', which do not seem to be going away, no matter how hard we try and how many different things we do to 'make things okay'. It just seems like everything is out to get us! 
Even my tooth has been playing up again and I have to go back for the dentist to have another go at the root canal in a few days time.
I feel like I'm falling apart!
Now, that's not the attitude meya - pull yourself together (you know it makes sense ..... yeah right ). But I have to, if only for my partner and especially for my kids (it's not their fault after all).
If anyone bothers to check on my 'Tao Diary' you will see that I have been busy there .... if only to find something philosophical or even spiritual to help (but I'm not very 'spiritual' - more of a hard-nosed realist/cynic if anything, so one of those is limited from the start!). It's all been very interesting and it has kept my head thinking.... but apart from slowly disappearing up my own backside with all the thinking and double-thinking, I'm not sure I'm really getting anywhere. Passes the time though when I should be doing more 'constructive' things 
(I'm a bit fed up with being 'constructive' at the moment as everything we seem to do on that score turns to 'mush' before our eyes 
).
I've just read back over this entry. Doesn't read happy does it! 
Back to trying to think 'positive' I guess ...............................
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